Today was Wednesday. I'm stating that fact because this post is very, very overdue. I'm going to be honest, so hold on to your chairs faithful followers- I'm uninspired. Wednesdays are Wednesdays, and lately senioritis has been creeping into my life outside of Somersworth High School. I'm lazy, tired, and feeling just plain blah. I can feel myself starting to pull away from my friends and people in my life when I'm finding this is a time I should be strengthening our bonds. I don't know what is taking over my brain, but frankly I don't care for it. I keep finding reasons to distance myself from those around me, and where it is a good defense mechanism in times of copious drama, it's honestly really starting to impact me emotionally. I'm excited to start over and start a new adventure come June but I feel like I'm leaving something behind. I've tried to make high school about "zero regrets", but in the end I'm finding that I am riddled with regrets and "What If"'s. Quite possibly the worst feeling in the entire history of the universe, regret is like a disease: ravaging you until you feel smaller than a quark. And quarks are really, really small. I feel this desperate need to right my past wrongs or nots, but a shadow of doubt is cast and I can't seem to find a way to fix things. Maybe I just need a break.
"Memory is more incredible than ink." -Anita Loos
live simply.
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