Day 1: Green Lotus YTT

Yesterday I moved out of my first apartment and back home with my family. I'm starting a 1-month, intensive, immersion program to become yoga teacher certified! This is also the last month I'll be home in NH (and also on the East Coast) before I head out west for Woolman. I'm hoping to keep these posts short and sweet- one of my favorite yogi principles is to speak little, speak kindly, and speak truthfully. If what you have to say is the truth but it is not kind, do so in a kind manner. I'll write again later this afternoon to reflect on my first day.

To transitions, new beginnings, old and new friends, and self love!

T

Update: I'm writing in my notebook for YTT. Not sure if I'll get around to updating this daily as well, but here's hoping!

Anxiety

A simple moment of weakness.
A cloud passing in front of the sun,
and skin tightens, goosebumps prickling,
grasping at the warmth it so lovingly accepted just a moment before.
Chest tightens, matching the papillae of follicles in the shadow of that cloud and mind tightens, grasping for wisps of light.
Reaching and yearning, the clenching of body keeps just.. out.. of... reach.
Sun-drenched thoughts and pleasant memories within view, without comfort.
Spiraling deeper and deeper into clenching, unrelenting mind and tight, tight chest,
wishing for release and relaxation.
Finding it in escape-
Unsustainable.
Finding it inward, looking inward at the hurricane of words and colors and feelings and seeking the eye of the storm.
Keep looking inward at the eye- it expands, opening up to see all.
Here is solace.
I am solace.
Here is strength.
I am strength.
Here is peace.
I am peace.
I am a universe unto and into myself.