My ever-building anxiety about leaving teenage dreams behind me dissipated as the clock struck midnight. Two decades have unraveled themselves in the context of my human being-ness, marked annually at 6:50 AM with an old family photography tradition.
Nineteen was fantastic. The love of my life and I rang in midnight (and 6:50 AM) with snores and smiles as we photographed the first few moments of my last teenage year. Laughter, as well as tears of mixed emotions permeated each month, marking my progress in academia, life, and love.
Twenty was different. Sisterly love enveloped me as I laughed my nineteenth year away. Different snores and smiles marked the wee hours of the morning, and 6:50 AM came and went as the tradition was slightly altered.
The last three months have been such a learning experience. The Environmental Field Semester JBS was phenomenal and outrageously frustrating, often in the same breath. My neophyte semester in KBG found me many new friends, strengthened bonds, and gave me a little sister. I'm beginning to learn how I fit into Brandeis, and how Brandeis is starting to fit into me. Emotionally exhausting, this semester has pushed my buttons and tested my fiber. Time will only tell if I pushed back properly.
For now, I say goodbye to EFS and goodbye to nineteen.
I'll carry both in my heart as I jump into twenty, as blind and terrified as ever.
live simply.
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